Tag: failure

i am my ideas and where they do not sit 
neither can i nor be anything but hit 
like a thump to the face 
and a broken nose thus traced 
as if the blood marked the score 
and everything we did was ought 

i sought nothing more
than to do what was right 
all my life i tried and still had no height 
so now it is time i stopped all these rhymes 
and left the world that has no place for me
beside my own bodybag quite blue and seen

and the codeine i have of more than a gram 
is what is now solving my problems to hand 
and so i slowly feel it and so i slowly can
as it infuses my future 
with the man i've become
and leads me to a peace 

like the gently dimming rays of dusks
quite lengthening now and also that timely 
where little more may i do too 
than sit and ponder a lifetime gone 
where daughter and sons and long-term relations
reach out too late to make a difference ever ...