on being a FEARless CITIZEN / the dreams of those who dream the unreal / all i want this christmas

https://gb2earth.com/love
when you teach 
and reach out
and don't preach but do advocate
these certain ways that are different
from all the differences everyone else sees
and accepts
and may reject or not
then i am not you
and you are not me

because what i am looking to do
is change the "you and me"
we have been so far
in humanity's historical charter
of what is good
and what is not:
i'm not prepared to settle any more
for a relativism of core
that destroys our capacity
to construct good and bad
in the measure they had
once upon a crime
and in rhyming couplets
that mean something deeper
than a ditty of shitty superficial resonances

i aspire to much more you see
because i believe
we humans are built out of cruelty
and good
depending on where we are stood
and the challenge for me now
(and how it is
this challenge i see
how it is for sure)
is to make it possible
for not just an individual
to progress mighty and fine
across the timeline of their person
but for the generations too
that they make up and inhabit true ...
... well ... that finally
they may not need to reset
and just about almost always reboot
what we know from one to the next

because if the driver of humanity's improvement
really is only ever
the nonconformism of intelligent individual
where corporate-style teamworks serve simply
to only implement and make real
the dreams of those who dream the unreal
we need far more dreamers of the unreal
than we currently have
if we are to survive and thrive
quite outwith ourselves one day
when FEARful prayer would no longer be needed
to deities sometimes just
and in equal measure as cruel as gruel
at least in the "sometimes"
that history has loosened upon us

and so all i want for christmas
is just the sense
that together
you and me
me and cee
(out of a love of the most real
even where not expressed ever
for whatever the circumstances
which present themselves
as a present that is current
as well as wrapped up
like no gift ever given)
we might just soon enough
be tough enough
to bring enough truth
and compassion and firm resilience
to the science
of building the FEARless CITIZEN

because me and you
that's what we are
and what we've been
all these years
they knocked us back
like into a sack where good guys are tumbled
by the really really bad
and dumped into waterless wells
(like we were rocks that don't ever get to)
and some these guys and sometimes gals
do no good
but only stuff the neighbourhoods
with more and more legitimated mafias
of nearby cities and then again
way beyond

so it's now time we put a stop to it all my love:
time we said enough is enough
and then did in consequential act
what was needed and always has been
and that the rough guys
who were never tough
but just cowards
and only apparently hard
when possessed of the full knowledge
no one could properly stop them ever
nor stop their awful cruelty
born of power's abuse and total misuse
as they winged our beautiful civilisations
over and over again
like icaruses
of a sun which should only have embraced
and instead was laced with poisons galore
by the criminals of yore
but also the mafias of RIGHT NOW

time i say
to make love where we can
and as women and men
and genders-all
we make these calls to love as practised
where humans communicate
with fabulous exes
that become the kisses
which seal the real human deal ...

... and then when we meet people
who care not at all for all this
it's time we became as firm as hell
and gave them bottles of their own medications
as we salvage the reputations
of every civilisation of good good hood
into a future-present
of neighbour "should"
and "want"
and "wish" being the most at this time of year
anyone has the right
to see delivered and given and handed over
and no longer feared
no longer feared
no longer feared ... at all


a world where it suddenly becomes
possible and practical
to rebuild
once more
the FEARless CITIZEN

“For you, obviously “

I wrote the below a few days ago then pulled it from the web.

But it’s what I feel, so now it’s what I repost on perhaps a better place: my own personal and lifework blog.

C … this is for you, obviously.

I’d like you to run everything day-to-day and operational I do in a collective future-present that clearly now approaches.

I’d like you to be COO.

I’d like you to use your immense experience and absolutely native intelligence not just to turn my ideas into reality but also to turn your ideas into reality. What we think is cool may therefore sometimes conflict.

So as far as where and how and why and what, even before we get to start, I’ll argue my preferences whenever I feel the need to … but as long as I sense the hearing you give me is fair, I’ll revert to your final decision always: and yes, with enthusiasm. Because that final decision has to belong more to you than me.

This for sure.

Please accept I’m serious now. Serious about what this means for me and demands of me.

Really. Really.

Yes.

Mil Williams, a few days ago …

But actually it’s not what I feel completely because it just talks about work. Maybe its absences say their piece, too; but only if you know our story well enough will they mean enough to mean anything this minute.

Really what do I most wish for?

Really, I’d just like us to start chatting again; just chatting and following lines of thought. I do love you deeply: so much so that it will only show itself from now on exactly as you prefer it to show.

That’s what deep love actually means: for the other on the other’s terms. And not for oneself, except insofar as the pleasure and joy of another becomes the joy and pleasure of oneself.

Not sacrificial, though; understand me this. My own family’s sense of sacrificial love’s value almost destroyed me.

So: not that.

But affectionate and warm, yes; forgiving and kindly; intelligent and forever … things like these. These things I feel profoundly about you, when it is you I am thinking of. Which — would you believe! — has never not been right now.

Not since that day, anyways. Not since that bridge.

“for you, obviously”

eternally grateful
unending affection
permanent respect
infinite joy
a heart of good
a soul of gold
a mind of the best
which a man like me
was ever honoured to trust

that’s the you i see
and that’s what’s made me whole
by your resilience of character
and profound nature of true
like an arrow to the target
but really to the things
that ensure life
rings out brightly
and brings all it can alive

and so then becomes
all we could want
without reluctance at all
nor inferences to miss
just the love of the pure
and the pulsating certainty of this
that the mettle
of your deepest being
is now just a beat away from me

Mil Williams, today

as a tool of state, this is not life (says the “he” that is “me” in #sweden … where life BECOMES a tool of state)

but never again shall i salivate the evil of the unnecessarily violent. as a last resort … this is how life sometimes must conduct itself. as a tool of habitual state … this is not.

mil williams, johan & nyström coffee shop, stockholm sweden, 9th april 2023

it’s not all plain selling. but then that’s not what life’s about.

but if i manage to stay here in the end, this — the end — it won’t be. it will be the best beginning i’ve ever managed. i spent seven years between the uk and ireland, trying to engineer a relationship between ireland and the uk. i failed.

now i say it out loud: not with joy but acceptance. acceptance that i failed in everything institutionally and personally related.

but not ideas-wise. not in respect of my increasing capacity to uncover them: like a pig and his beloved truffles. for me, ideas are truffles, waiting to be found; and they say that pigs bear many good resemblances to humans. physiologically, for sure. maybe in other respects i am still unaware of.

all i can say is if a pig is good enough for george clooney, why not associate myself with the same?

🙂

so why here — and now?

because in a very brief period of time i see a society like none i have experienced in my life. there are cruel people here: but the society as a wider whole is striving not to legislate or legitimate state cruelty. and this i am defo not accustomed to back in my homeland.

so if i have to contribute to a tech which scales up basic government and regional administrative instincts, i want it to be in a place where more manually these instincts are sound. meantime, the triumvirate of evil exists in the uk with the conservative attachment to russian wealth and trump’s idiocies all in one. and all by now as an all too well-established nouveau establishment of the horrifyingly, casually cruel.

one thing many don’t realise, and i still don’t fully understand: a military society can be a liberating one too. it all depends to what purpose you militarise — and with what genders you compose your military out of.

during my whole time in the uk i was oppressed by outliers of a military which, tbh, needed very few outliers anyway to operate and impose such oppression with the necessary precision. look at the state of the london metropolitan police right now just to appreciate how ugly the uk has allowed itself to become. and that’s the first line: just the police.

this is why here, and why now. and if it’s not possible now and here, it will be somewhere else similar, and sometime then.

but never again shall i salivate the evil of the unnecessarily violent. as a last resort … this is how life sometimes must conduct itself. as a tool of habitual state … this is not.