thinking aloud is not the same as being allowed to think

i used to teach english as a foreign language and a second one.

i used a system with a process called ppp:

• presentation
• practice
• production

i realised, as i shared my knowledge over the years, that it was a good process: for me, anyways. it replicated how i learnt what i thought about the world around me.

except the order, for me, was different.

in my case, when for example i thought-experiment or write, i produce first, and then — to myself — i present, often for the first time in my life. i only know what i know after i communicate it. because, in my case, i don’t know if yours, in its telling we have its act of creation. yes. literally this.

the practice, meantime, is meta: it never isn’t happening.

that’s my brain, anyhow — for me and my metacognitive outcomes: produce, and so only then be presenting to oneself.

and then not be not practising, ever.

in its making yesterday, the video which follows is a very good summary and example of how i understand what i am thinking deep inside my intuitive core.

and i am comfortable now with this series of procedures. and i think i shall continue to the end of.

meantime, as i write these lines, i am minded to discover something else about myself: two weeks ago i was in stockholm, sweden. i was alive, and comfortable.

since the 21st of february i have been in my homeland, becoming increasingly uncomfortable. you all love how you are: that’s your right. but i can’t love your way of being: and that’s my right.

from now on, i do business in respect of tech documentation with whomsoever values my services and capacity.

equally, not one of my tech projects will you now work on if you do not reside in sweden gladly and joyfully. or at the very least, once experienced, understand why i want nothing else.

tech can be fabulous and compliant and purposeful and societal and security-minded and defensive against a clearly common enemy — as well as supportive of the citizenry more generally.

and the third most innovative country in the world — a country of barely ten million people — is proof that if you ain’t got it, it’s because you don’t want it.

and so where you don’t even want to try, i don’t want you to try. but i don’t want your closed doors, either.

because i shall continue to do so: that is, to try where you do not.

in places where others also want to.

and a population of ten million and a half is much more than we need. in fact, to take the first steps … well … we just need two feet that want to.

so imagine what 21 million feet may do.